On Spending Thanksgiving Alone

splurging on vitamins because I am too lazy to exercise, & writing this as I go

I didn’t expect to feel lonely because I didn’t last year.

Last year I just felt sooooooo relieved not to be spending it with my family (sup ACA?) or my awful fucking in-laws.

But I woke up and felt sad, and then I thought about my dead dad & my dead younger brother and cried for a bit. Then I felt better. It was a cathartic cry—luckily. Some of them are …